Where I'm at...

Yesterday was May 6th. Three years ago I started talking to Ramzi and now we're both with different people - and that's a good thing. It was rebound for both of us, and neither one of us was ready for that relationship. It's hard to believe it's been three years.

On May 16th - next week - it would have been my 33rd wedding anniversary. Dan's birthday is May 22nd, and Jason's birthday is May 30th. I want to get to the point where May is just about Jason's birthday...and nothing more.

I am  over Dan - I think - but some days...the tears still flow. However, it's not as often as it was, and it doesn't hurt as much as it did. He'll be celebrating his 2nd wedding anniversary in September. Yep, I really don't care like I did. Life goes on - and I am happy for it.

Last Saturday was my last day of work at Toasted Oak - maybe just for now. I just could not keep up. I'm so disappointed with myself with the grade I got in Statistics last semester. It ruined my 4.0, so now, hopefully, I'll still maintain a 3.9. I know it sounds like no big deal, but to me, it was. I was so proud of it.

I loved working at Toasted Oak because of the people.  My timing was getting better, and my confidence was growing, and my speed was much better. I really felt like I was getting into the groove. My boss didn't want me to leave. I wasn't working there for the money - it was the fact that my insurance was  only costing me $60 a month. But, to maintain the full-time status, I needed to work at least 32 hours a week. So, I was working 8-10 hours on Wednesday and 12 hours on Friday and Saturday! It was killing me! I was always tired and really had no life outside of school, homework, and work. I also took 16 credit hours last semester. So, now is the time to concentrate on school, my body, and Keith.

I signed up for health insurance - $300 a month, but I get a $67 a month break from the government. Keith and I are looking for a place to move in together. That way, we are not only getting to see each other more, we'll save some money! Well, renting is a lot more expensive then buying, and that's the struggle. Lots to think about.

I got some new golf clubs and am taking some refresher lessons starting next week. I'm trying to get all of my homework and studying out of the way so Keith and I can enjoy our weekends. Once I start back to work, I'll work every weekend again, so we want to enjoy it now while we can. I also want to start getting out on my bike, and maybe start running again. There is so much I want to do that I think those 32 hours a week I was working are going to get filled up pretty quickly!

For my Psychology class, we were asked to pick an interesting person and use them for a case study each week. I chose Julia Child - because we both started this culinary career later in life. I'm finding the assignments so interesting!

I'm really in a good place right now - school - being able to devote more time to homework and my Student Ambassador and Student Mentor work; golf, running, cycling - I will have more time; and Keith - the entire weekend. We are planning our future together, and that makes me extremely happy.

May 14th

Can't believe it's been 40 years since Dan asked me to go steady with him. I miss Dan and the life we had - the good times - every day.

Well, it's been going on two weeks away from work and I'm just starting to feel like my old self. My eyes are looking better and not so swollen from too much or not enough sleep! I spent the money to have them done last July and I'm finally seeing the results! LOL!

School is going really well - I got all A's at midterm and I expect to get all A's at the end of this semester. I'm so bummed about the B+ in Stats last semester. I really wanted to graduate with a 4.0. I have four classes next semester, then four the following, then two the last semester, so I'm hoping I can finish out with A's.

Keith and I are desperately looking for some place to live. I really can't take living in this apartment much longer. I moved in August 2011 and enough is enough of apartment life. We are not going to buy, but instead try to rent until he retires. We want to buy something in Arizona, so we may do that before he retires because the house prices are creeping up. Things are going really, really well with us. I'm so hoping they work out. I think if we live together first it will be good to see just how well we do before we get married! But, I think it's all good. We do need a bigger kitchen, that's for sure. When we're cooking, it's the two of us, his dog Cocoa, who is a Chocolate Lab mix, and my Gideon, and there's just not enough room!

Well, finishing up some homework today (I always have homework - I've had homework almost every day for the last three years and I'm so sick of homework!), then I'm going to the driving range to hit some balls before my first group lesson tomorrow, then I'm going to make pizza meatloaf and mashed potatoes for dinner. Keith and Cocoa are coming over. I can't wait until he doesn't have to come over, and he doesn't have to leave!