You know, it's weird, I never plant to write on my blog - it just happens. Maybe I subconsciously know I need to!
HELP!! I'm just struggling so much at this point - probably more than any other time in my life. Yesterday was my birthday...the first I spent totally alone. I could have gone out and done something, but I'm so far behind on school work...I got lots of nice greetings from my Facebook friends and I talked to Chris and my friend Cathy. Jason I think is out of town so he'll probably call me when he gets back...
I'm struggling in Math, I'm struggling with this swimming thing, (still can't get the breathing down) and I'm struggling being on my own. I know I don't have time right now to have someone in my life, but it still hurts. Going through Valentine's Day and my birthday alone - that sucked.
I just want to get through this semester - tooooo much homework and studying. Now I have four projects and four finals hanging over my head. I really have never been this behind in anything in my life.
BUT, I'm looking ahead - not behind. I know I'll get through all of this - I know it's not the end of the world - I know that all of this will make me a stronger person.
One thing I did to today - I cleaned my apartment! I'm sooo serious, it hasn't been cleaned since Christmas, I think. You know, done the quick swiffer and a quick swish of the toilet brush, but....it was time. I said screw the homework,this needs done! So, I put on my I-pod, listened to some new stuff I've downloaded, and felt so much better with everything clean!
I've not done very well in my culinary class the past two weeks. I need a job in a kitchen. I need to have a knife in my hand more than one day a week. But this is so not the time to look for another job. I can not take on one more thing right now.
I love my new ride! I'm finally getting the automatic start and the roof rack installed on Friday. I'm also taking my bike into the bike shop to be sure it's race ready!
God, give me the strength to get through this.
